No Pickle Juice For Me, Thanks!

The end of August 2014, I deactivated my Facebook account for 6 months.  I had several reasons for leaving, but one of the biggest reasons?  

JEALOUSY.  

It was a long time coming, but the following is the condensed version of how I had come to this sad sorry state:

I was married in August 2012 and finished my bachelor's degree in December 2012.  I felt myself suddenly entering a new season of life: 25 years old, a newly wed & college graduate.  All very exciting!  But, now what? 

Being married opened new possibilities. Babies is what filled my mind.  I became EVER MINDFUL of EVERYONE having babies.  Babies had overtaken my Facebook news feed.  In reality, I was just NOW REALLY SEEING them.

Along with having babies,  I watched my cohort buy houses, get promotions, move into an even more gorgeous house, entertain and maintain friendships, go on vacations galore, sport new cars, attend concerts and NFL & NBA games, host parties, etc., etc.
 

I was blind with envy!  So jealous, I lost sight of who I am, what I stand for and value, and what MY goals are.  I saw how many comments and "likes" others' received and believed that proved they lead the most ideal lives-LIVES TO BE SOUGHT AFTER. 

 It was like I was watching each person advertise and market their life as the best/most fulfilling way to live and be happy and I was falling for it.  I wanted a slice of THEIR happiness.   

It wasn’t until I took my 6 month break, that I realized I don’t REALLY desire to have that stuff!  Not because they aren't worthy goals or dreams but because they're NOT MY goals or dreams.  They don't align with MY values.  If I have extra money to spend, I wouldn’t choose to spend it on tickets to a concert or NBA game.  Honestly, I'd use it to pay off student loans or just go out to dinner. Boring!  I am an introvert and have always had a small circle of friends so hosting a barbecue with a large group isn’t my thing either and IT’S OK. 

Furthermore, I realized my introverted,  private life would not be desired, upheld, or celebrated on Facebook.    Yyyyep, I was seeking validation from Facebook friends.  Likes and comments showing I had chosen to live a great life.  I had to learn that others' approval and opinions of how I am living my life does NOT matter and I should NOT put my self esteem in such careless hands.  That I don't need likes and comments to know I am living a great life for me. 

I had to learn to LOOK UP, NOT SIDEWAYS.  

"A challenge for all of us is not to look sideways to see how others are viewing our lives but to look up to see how Heavenly Father sees us." -Carl B. Cook

So, how do you not get jealous when others have the stuff you DO desire?

I'd like to have children, I'd like to buy a house. But they're not in my immediate future.  Couple things have helped me:

1.   Faith. 

All the wonderful quotes by Jeffrey R. Holland are from his talk The Laborers in the Vineyard .  This talk reminds me that God is merciful, that there is a time and season for everything and to have faith that MY TIME will come.  There will be a time for having babies and buying a house. Be patient, have faith, keep moving forward!

2. Don't be a silent stalker.  

I decided that instead of silently stalking, letting jealousy eat me up I will make my presence known by "liking" their post or picture, or comment to share my honest opinion. "I think what you're doing is awesome! I look up to you! I admire your adventurous nature!"  

Once, I put my admiration into words for them to see, it no longer feels like jealousy.  I openly admit that I admire them or something they have done and move on with my life.  If I can't stop thinking about something they have shared.  I ask myself if it is something I desire for myself, if so, I work towards making it a part of my life and thank them for calling it to my attention.

What do you do to fend off jealousy?

I am a Housewife & I am Enough!

Today marks my ONE YEAR anniversary AS A HOUSEWIFE!

As I reflect on the past year, I'm reminded of the struggles I've had to maintain confidence in the importance and value of being a housewife.  At times, I felt engulfed in passion for my work as a housewife and then other times felt like a nobody as I struggled to answer the simple question, "WHAT DO YOU DO?" each time a stranger asked.

A simple question but I've yet to find my simple answer. (The thought to memorize Renee's quote HAS crossed my mind).  How do you sum up the work of a housewife?  Everyday is different.  I get to decide what I want to do every. single. day.  I do everything from the regular routine stuff:  cooking, cleaning, errands, caring for my honey, etc.  To accomplishing goals and dreams: planning, budgeting, learning new skills, reading everything self improvement, trying new things, etc. And yes, some days I do nothing but lounge and be lazy. (Truthfully, taxing on my emotional & mental well-being:not my favorite way to spend a day)

The good, the bad, the ugly, I LOVE being a housewife.

 I realize many may scoff and sneer at the notion that I might actually find fulfillment in something so simple but alas here it is:

I am a Housewife & I am Enough.

When I need to be reminded of my worth I remember this simple quote from a great talk: Look Up

Minimalist Wannabe

Since my last post, I found Becoming Minimalist on Facebook and have felt so inspired and motivated to make some big changes towards minimizing our belongings.  I decided to start with the worst closet-closet #2.  It was an ugly, but rewarding project! 

I had no vision of what I wanted the end product to look like, no plan for how I would get rid of stuff so it was quite a process.  It took me THREE LONG days to de-junk this space.

In the previous post I talked about reducing numbers by 25-50%, so  I chose to start with what I considered the funnest part of de-junking-INVENTORY.  I took inventory of the jeans in this closet (& closet #1) and slashed the number in half.

It was an immediate reward for my minimizing efforts and just what I needed to keep going!

By the end of day 2 things were looking MUCH better....at least INSIDE the closet was.

  This is my office (where closet #2 is located) during the de-junking phase. NOT pretty!

Here's inside my much better closet by the end of day 2.

  I was feeling pretty accomplished at this point.  I had gotten rid of a TON of stuff but still asked, is there something MORE I could get rid of, condense or combine? Of course the answer was YES.  All of these containers held craft supplies (plus another not pictured from closet #3).  I kept the biggest 3 drawer container  and got rid of all the others

This was a bigger project than I thought it would be.  It would have gone smoother had I actually had a plan of how to de-junk BUT using my common sense got the job done and I've learned a few things I'll do differently on closet #3.

Here's all the stuff we got rid of-gave away.  The black bags are 55 gal contractor bags; they're filled with our CLOTHES.  I was sad to see how much money, effort, and time I have spent of acquiring THINGS just to never use them and eventually get rid of them.  What a waste!

My office is back to order

I should probably just leave on the unrealistic pretty note portrayed above but here's the truth:  a fraction of the junk in my closet migrated to Ivan's office and closet #3. Soooo stay tuned for the closet #3 update!

A Living Oxymoron

I am materialistic; I despise it & want to deny it but my house, closets, and storage are screaming evidence that I am; however, another part of me is an aspiring minimalist who values simplicity.  

I am made up of two completely opposite forces, and I'm seeking to find harmony and balance.

Here are some pictures of my closets.  I have already made several successful purges.  I WISH I had pictures to capture the height of the issue but these will have to do.

The picture above is the closet in our bedroom.  We bought a set of 100 wooden hangers and initially, we wanted to continue to buy more wooden hangers to replace our plastic ones; since I've been getting rid of stuff, I told Ivan I wanted to make a goal to stick to 100 pieces of clothing between the two of us! Yeah, I'm wondering if that's possible for us; may need revision but it sounded like a really awesome goal to work towards.

In college, where I gathered most of my clothing collection, I often got anxiety imagining a fire burning all my clothes and how devastated I would be.  Ridiculous, right?  

My clothes meant A LOT to me.

For YEARS, I made attempts to get rid of clothes I no longer wore or fit; I usually ended up with 5 pieces or less, I was willing to go away or donate.  You know the dialogue, "I might be able to fit this again" "I only wore this once, it's too nice to give away" etc. etc.  I also held onto things I thought I might need in the future even if that meant YEARS in the future. 

Here's our 2nd closet:

Before this purge, all the white hangers were used.  Doesn't seem like much but I did get rid of a good chunk of clothes.

The "chunk of clothes" I got rid of

Bye bye shoes

I had 15 winter coats I gave away, felt really great to get rid of them

Our 3rd Closet

I will post "after" pictures as I continue to whittle down

Our 100 Day Challenge UPDATE

We really messed this up so we decided to start over!

 "Fail to plan, plan to fail." That's a no-brainer and yet we never sat down together to WRITE out the details of our 100 day challenge. We discussed vague ideas and goals but never put anything in writing.  So here is our plan in writing!

We will create a sense of teamwork while focusing on these 3 aspects of a healthy lifestyle: nutritious  foods, ample exercise, & adequate sleep.

Nutritious Foods: follow 21 Day Fix-portionology guidelines, create a weekly meal plan, go grocery shopping weekly, record food intake daily
Exercise:  create & follow 4 week exercise plan,  stretch pre/post workout, take measurements & pictures at the beginning & end of the 100 days
Sleep: get 7-9 hours of sleep each night. Asleep by 10pm up by 6am

For fun we'll complete 2 items from our fitness bucket list each week (these activities are underlined on the 4 week plan).

Alana's Baby Shower!

My sister-in-law and I planned a baby shower for my niece -who's having a girl!!  

She selected Whispering Pines Lodge as the venue for the shower. 

This lodge is GORGEOUS and made decorating a CINCH! Honestly, we could have done without 

decor and it still would have been beautiful!  But, where's the fun in that?! 

If you browse through the pictures and previous post, you'll quickly find I did not carry a set theme throughout all the pieces (the invites, gift suggestions, shower decor, games, etc).   Using Pinterest, I found ideas I liked and got my sister-in-laws ideas and put them together to make this shower.  

 I'll let you be the judge on whether that worked for, or against us. 

 

My favorite part of the table was the fresh flowers! 

Once again, I used Shanty to Chic's printable banner to create this one for the shower.

Spoiled!! This is only a portion of the presents she got! We love this baby already!

My sister-in-law bought these cute pom poms to go over the food

 

Here's a fun view from the balcony above

For activities and games, we played What's in Your Phone, How big is Her Belly, 

Baby Jeopardy, & Match the Baby Socks. We ended with a sentimental activity-Dear Baby.  The shower guests enjoyed themselves and most importantly my niece loved it!!

 

I had a blast planning this shower! I'm so grateful my sister-in-law and niece let me be a part of the planning and can't wait til this baby girl is born!!